A Case of Baffling Fatigue With a Spectral Twist

A Case of Baffling Fatigue With a Spectral Twist


Kate Scannell, MD, FACP

Winter 2012 - Volume 16 Number 1

http://dx.doi.org/10.7812/TPP/11-107B

Mr Gee was so tired of feeling so tired. And his seasoned internists and subspecialists were exhausted by their futile attempts to establish a diagnosis for his debilitating fatigue. Sure, they were treating their 50-year-old patient for diabetes, hypertension, heart disease, and renal insufficiency. But, informed by their collective clinical acumen, they knew that, on any clinical scale, his fatigue outweighed any plausible measure.

Besides, Mr Gee's blood chemistries and cell counts doggedly remained near normal limits all the while his profound fatigue relentlessly progressed. Although reporting that he retired to bed every night for an eight-hour minimum, he still easily nodded off throughout the day—often at inopportune moments—which impaired his capacity for work and socialization. Despite his increasing debilitation and isolation, his physicians did not think he was depressed, and they could not implicate any of his usual medications. No evidence supported a causal role for a host of inflammatory, autoimmune, thyroid, adrenal, and sleep disorders.

Mr Gee's primary physician was even more concerned about a second diagnostic conundrum. Reportedly, for weeks, Mr Gee had experienced abrupt elevations of his systolic blood pressure to worrisome levels—beyond 200 mmHg—that tended to occur at night. During those "episodes" he also experienced headaches, tinnitus, nausea, and fear about succumbing to a stroke. Laboratory and radiographic tests in pursuit of secondary causes like pheochromocytoma failed to yield an explanation for these episodes. Multiple antihypertensive trials—with which Mr Gee had been compliant—had not diminished their frequency or severity.

A Senior Consultant Moment

Years ago, in response to an apparent need, my innovative department chief had asked me to provide a part-time clinic as a "Senior Medical Consultant," devoted to assisting colleagues who cared for patients with elusive diagnoses, or patients with whom they had experienced a therapeutic impasse.

I don't believe that I was asked to undertake this new position because of intellectual aptitude or clinical prowess. Rather, my chief knew that I was attracted to diagnostic puzzles and drawn to the care of patients with complex multisystem illnesses. My background had included doctoring during the early AIDS epidemic, and I was actively practicing as an internist, rheumatologist, and geriatrician. My most winning qualification for "Senior Consultant" was undoubtedly my (prematurely) gray hair.

During my years as the Senior Medical Consultant, I neither cracked all the baffling case referrals nor fixed all the fractured patient-physician relationships. Still, a few triumphs prevailed, and Mr Gee's case is one of them.

When I received the referral for Mr. Gee, I prepared for the consultation in customary fashion. I began by reading all of his paper and electronic medical records, summarizing each seemingly significant clinical notation and test result in chronological order. I then took those data points and categorized them by organ systems. Finally, I tried to make connections between the organ categories and data points, hoping to construct a wholly illustrative diagnostic picture to explain the patient's troubles. Sometimes this preparatory exercise revealed a diagnosis well in advance of a scheduled consultation, allowing more-timely discernment and treatment of a patient's illness.

But that did not happen in this case. In fact, when I tried to connect the voluminous data points I'd culled from Mr. Gee's medical records, I only drew a ghostly blank.

Still, I remained optimistic. For I had learned from experience that whenever a wealth of diagnostic points proved to be utterly pointless, it was highly probable that we physicians were inaccurately pinpointing that patient's story. That generally meant a return to the drawing board for a reconstruction of the patient's narrative, with hopes of sighting new diagnostic and therapeutic possibilities.

Returning to the Drawing Board—And Blanking the Canvas

Encouraging a patient to frame his illness within his own experience of its beginning, its current middle, and its imagined ending will often expose clarifying diagnostic clues. That's because patients frequently situate their illnesses within contexts of time and events that don't match those documented in their medical records (where, for example, the beginning of an illness is frequently tethered to the sentinel date of a clinic visit or an abnormal lab report). The revised historical timelines allow previously ignored but germane symptoms to be newly included within the diagnostic analysis. Also, a patient's telling of his imagined future, living with the uncertainty of an ambiguous disorder, often reveals his projections or fears—illness expressions that you can sometimes trace back to inchoate somatic murmurings in the present that translate into useful clues.

Whenever patients use clinical terms—like "seizure" or "MI"—while telling their stories, I ask them to reword those terms in laypersons' language. This request is regularly illuminating because patients' translations of the "med-speak" they've adopted through clinical encounters frequently divulge idiosyncratic understandings of their illnesses and prognoses. Accurate diagnostic clues—buried under long-standing and unchallenged semantic errors that throw us off-track—can be unearthed in the rewording. For example, a patient's lay narration of having a "lupus disorder" can turn into a story about … well, about many other alternate diagnostic possibilities.

When hesitation or silence prevails during a consultation, I try to wait it out, until the patient speaks. This practice of waiting often feels excruciating—a minute of silence seems like an eternity in the clinic or at the bedside, all the while I struggle to cultivate a comfort zone for me and for my patient. And though this practice aims to generate a welcoming space for the patient to articulate what has remained unsaid or unsayable, it also provides an opportunity for me to rest meditatively, if only for a minute, in my immediate experience of doctoring and relationship.

Above all else, my ultimate goal is to come to see the patient's narrative—not just hear it, but actually see it, as though it were a movie or a documentary. For me, that requires the patient's detailed exposition of his or her point of view, and full-bodied structural exhibitions of the "who, what, where, when, why, and how" of their story.

So, the day Mr Gee arrived for consultation, I would "blank the canvas." I'd put aside my voluminous notes and diagrams, place blank paper on the table, and ask him to tell me what had happened to him—from his beginning of his story, to his telling of its imagined end.

Mr Gee's Story Unfolding

Mr Gee cast his eyes downward when I entered the exam room and greeted him. Sitting precariously on the edge of a chair and dressed in casual attire (not quite befitting his nervous demeanor), he murmured "hello" and abruptly stood. He walked toward the doorway and asked, "How long is this appointment going to take?"

"We have an hour to talk," I answered. "Is this a bad time for you?"

"No," he replied. "I just thought the nurse made a mistake when she scheduled this. A whole hour? Why so long?"

"Because," I explained, "what we need is time—not another CAT scan or blood test now—to try to figure out why you're feeling bad. Is that okay?"

Mr Gee nodded and slowly returned to his chair. I placed several blank sheets of paper on the table between us and asked, "So tell me—when was the last time you ever felt completely well?"

It had been months since Mr Gee had felt well—long before the onset of his fatigue and hypertensive episodes as recorded in his medical record. This allowed us to more accurately examine an extended time frame in which to contextualize his complaints and search for overlooked contemporaneous somatic and psychosocial clues of potential diagnostic relevance. Notably, we newly established that when he'd begun to feel unwell, "something happened" between him and a friend—but he declined to further explain. "It's personal, and I don't want to talk about that," he said. "It makes me feel ashamed."

Mr Gee had trouble continuing his story after this poignant self-admonition, so I invited him to restart his story at its end and proceed backwards. And that's when one big missing piece of the narrative track newly snapped into rightful alignment. For, when imagining his future with his mystifying symptoms, Mr Gee twice mentioned his father in a seemingly incidental manner. This was intriguing because I had learned through family history-taking that his father had died decades earlier. How was he somehow still active in the patient's felt experience of his illness? Endeavoring to "see" the patient's story, I asked: "Can you tell me how your father looks in this future of yours?"

Silence followed. Mr. Gee looked away and stared at the wall. Maybe 30 very long seconds passed before he finally said, "He looks like a person who is dead."

A variety of images (some unsettling) sprung to my mind, so I asked for clarification. "You mean, like a dead body, someone in a coffin?"

"No," he replied matter-of-factly. "Like a ghost. Like he looked when he was alive, but he has no body."

Mr Gee then described how his father had appeared during life, and he reported that his father's ghost had most recently visited him several months earlier. I asked, "And what is that like for you, seeing your father as a ghost? Is it frightening or pleasant or—what?"

"It feels good to see him," Mr Gee replied. He explained that he'd been raised within a household that was regularly inhabited by ancestral ghosts who were revered by his Asian parents. His parents had taught him to stay ever-mindful and respectful of the ghosts who, in turn, would watch over him and fend off evil specters. To imagine his father's ghostly presence afforded him great comfort.

I was trying to see the patient now in the context of suffering his symptomatic hypertensive episodes—wanting to visualize what he actually did during those nightly attacks; wondering if he saw his father "around"; needing to envisage how he actually took his blood pressure readings and documented the spikes. So I asked him to describe these things in solid details—"like a video of your experience, in your words."

He described his bedroom and the way he slept—always on his back—when his episodes occurred. But when I asked him to show me how he used a cuff, he simply stated: "I don't."

I was distracted momentarily by the loud "thud" sounding within my head. A moment later, I was able to ask the obvious question: "Then where do those high blood pressure numbers come from, Mr Gee—the ones you've been reporting to your doctors?"

Med-speak translation revealed that Mr Gee's notion of "blood pressure" and its metric assessment could be wholly subjective. As he explained, the discomfort he felt during the "episodes" felt like some terrible build-up of internal pressure that, when extreme, would merit his assignment of a "200 or more" point rating.

"Oh," I managed, understanding now that his hypertensive crises were … well, not hypertensive crises. I wondered what other essential elements of his story had been lost in our translation. Scrambling for answers, I then asked Mr Gee to describe in detail what he actually did during the attacks.

"Nothing," he said. "I am just in bed, and I stay there."

"But you said you felt like vomiting when your pressure was high. Don't you sometimes get up, maybe turn on the lights and run to the bathroom or –"

"No. The lights are already on," he explained. "I don't get up."

"But why are the lights on if you're in bed, sleeping?"

He looked directly at me, and the subsequent tone of his voice made it sound as though the answer was obvious. He said, "I keep the lights on while I am in bed because the ghosts come out in the dark. I keep the lights on to keep them away, so I do not sleep."

Within that illumination, the rest of the story became increasingly visible. Importantly, we could now see that the diagnosis for his cryptic fatigue was not-sleeping, for fear of ghostly visitations.

But why was his father's ghost no longer visiting and capable of comforting him? Where were the protective ancestral ghosts?

Mr Gee explained that they had abandoned him. Whatever had caused him to experience shame—marking his defined onset of feeling unwell—had also merited their strong disapproval.

"I am sorry," I said, handing a tissue to Mr Gee.

I interpreted Mr Gee's subsequent silence as continuing indication that he did not want to speak about that troubling event. Still, I could not see what he was actually afraid of, what caused him to wear himself down and become so ill. I asked, "What do the bad ghosts look like?"

"No—It is just one ghost," he answered. "He was a neighbor in my apartment building, and he died."

Through his further detailed telling of the "who, what, where, when, and how" of his illness, it was revealed that the neighboring tenant had died a few days after having accidentally witnessed Mr Gee's self-incriminating indiscretion. Consequently, Mr Gee believed the tenant's ghost had come to haunt his apartment in punishing retribution, taking advantage, too, of his protector ghosts' parallel abandonment.

In essence, the only thing to do was to keep the lights on throughout the night. Not sleeping. Abiding panic attacks. Waiting for the ghost of a chance at redemption.

Dénouement

I saw Mr Gee once more, for a final visit two months after our initial one. By then, he was happily in treatment with the psychiatrist I'd consulted who had helped to ease his insomnia and panic attacks, while not pathologizing his cultural beliefs. He was also able to reveal to her the nature of his shame, and that seemed to open up another avenue for healing—down-to-earth talk-therapy in the psychiatrist's office. His primary care physician and subspecialists were relieved that rational diagnoses had been established for Mr Gee's clinical complaints, and they were able to downscale his antihypertensive protocol. Mr Gee was grateful that "all the blood testing and x-rays" in pursuit of diagnoses had stopped.

As we shook hands goodbye, Mr Gee said, "Thank you for letting me tell about the ghosts. You did not make me feel stupid."

It pained me in the moment to hear how he had felt silenced by his fear of such judgment from my profession. But I also made note to remember his words on behalf of future patients, to stay vigilant for the confounding power of shame to subvert diagnostic clarity and create perplexing distances between physicians and patients.

"Mr Gee," I called out as he passed through the exit. "Did your father ever come back?"

He turned to me and pointed his index finger upward. "Not yet. But I know he is coming soon."

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